Zazbaat (Hindi Poetry)

Kabhi mere khwab sa uljho
aur nigaho mein sulajh jaao,
kabhi khamosh in hotho par khilkhilati
khubsurat muskan si bikhar jaao,
kabhi meri khwahisho ke samandaro ko thaamo
kinaare par shabdo ko theraav do,
aane ki ummeed mein tumhare sajaa rakhe hai
ek waqt ke intezaar aur khyaal puraane
ke kabhi toh band in khyalo ke jharokhe tatolo
tum hi tum nazar aoge dil ki koi bhi khidki kholo

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Little Things!

Sometimes little things matter a lot!

There is a little place in me
where I still feel you a little everyday
Those deep beautiful eyes that holds
oceans of infinite emotions inside
still trying to loose the storms a little everyday
your whispers softly echo a little everyday
kisses still linger on my heart a little everyday
the memories rambles around a little everyday
I guess if I could explain
that I miss you a little everyday
though everything has changed a lot but
a little part of you will always
be a forever part of me
a little to often yet a little too much
& a little more with every passing day!!.

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Save the Date – II (Short Story)

Recap: Shubh has his own mindset about marriage and accompanying his best friend Tarun on his wedding with Surbhi, he reached Jaipur for destination wedding where he was introduced to Shruti by Surbhi like it happened for first time.

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Take 3 Noidaūüí¨
‚ÄúNo, Mom I am not ready for marriage yet as I am not financially stable & looking to meet with some other tasks in life first..marriage isn‚Äôt one of them‚ÄĚconsoling to my Mom on debate of marriage.
‚ÄúYour father already had words with Mr.Mishra and we are going tomorrow to meet his family & daughter.She is beautiful,well cultured & also settled at Delhi with her job‚ÄĚMy mom ordered with no choice to me as where there is father’s order there is no choice.
Finally I submitted myself in front of my parents and sitting besides a beautiful slim fair girl with all red cheeks & lips and cursing upon my fortune because for a moment I wanted to forget my all dreams and freedom for this angel.We were left alone for sometime in the room with pre-arranged tea-table & the situation reminded me of typical Barjatya’s Bollywood movies.
“I work & put up in Gurgaon‚Ķand you put up in Delhi right..although everything is closely connected there, like Delhi-NCR‚ÄĚ..I broke the silence showing curiosity to know about her.
‚ÄúYes, but it‚Äôs too far from Gurgaon..it’s in Rohini with one room-mate & its near to my workplace too.There is no hope of coming down to Gurgaon ever for me‚ÄĚ she encountered in one go like we were participants of any debate contest about connectivity of Delhi-NCR.
‚Äúwho told you to shift the place?‚ÄĚ I almost defended
‚ÄúIf things will get settle positively today then‚Ķ‚ÄĚ
‚ÄúThen..what?‚ÄĚ I cut her
‚ÄúThen actually‚Ķ.Please do me a favour,reject me or say no for this proposal‚ÄĚ she paused & almost broke my heart & alive my dead dreams again
‚ÄúYou want to marry with someone else,you can tell me..I‚Äôll help you out‚ÄĚ
‚ÄúNo..I am single & happy just looking forward to my dreams and not ready for taking responsibilities‚ÄĚ She interrupted me & completed
‚ÄúHey! even I am not ready for taking responsibilities,came here on wish of my parents and you saved me..now its only you who could do something..the saviour‚ÄĚ I said showing no interest on her & marriage with dead heart.
‚ÄúOk..I‚Äôll try but I really like you as a person & we could be good friends‚ÄĚ she told me like I am unaware of girls mentality..so superficial huh!!
‚Äúyeah, friends in some 25 mins‚Ķ.too early‚ÄĚ I replied holding my all cupid conspiracies & moved out of so-called meeting room with her.

Take 4..Back to Jaipurūüí¨
‚ÄúHey..How are you‚ÄĚ I greeted her like meeting her for first time
‚Äúlong time..‚ÄĚ she replied loudly as the punjabi music is on its high,
‚ÄúSomewhere two and half years‚Ķso your parents haven‚Äôt got a good match or else still cursing me‚ÄĚ I said with witty smile
‚ÄúI am really sorry, Shubh. I have no options to contact you even I didn‚Äôt imagine it could have led you to worse situation but somewhere its you who provoked me to lie‚ÄĚ she defended her.

Take 3 Consequences
‚ÄúSo how‚Äôs the girl, what‚Äôs your decision,I‚Äôll go with your opinion and not probing you to say yes‚ÄĚmy father questioned & answered me
‚ÄúDad,the girl is nice and I thought at least it would be good to settle down the things with engagement for a while & I‚Äôll marry her at right time‚ÄĚ
‚ÄúThat‚Äôs what I thought too‚Ķthank you my son‚ÄĚ he replied with a great smile

‚ÄúHow‚Äôs the boy..?‚ÄĚ Mr Mishra to her daughter(Surbhi)
‚ÄúDad, he is of mysterious personality with stumble mind. I have seen him before with girls in Delhi even he came here under the pressure of his parents. He smokes, drinks & hide things from his parents so he is not of honest mindset too but he is positive for marriage‚Ķstill I‚Äôll do whatever you say..‚ÄĚshe replied as usually in one go.
‚ÄúNo..never..I am happy,we came to know all this at right time‚Ķnevertheless we will wait for right time‚ÄĚ he completed in consolidating note.

Take 5 Back in Jaipur againūüí¨
‚Äúhaahaa..Yes,I know..I am the only one of my kind..who believes in making dead dreams come alive‚ÄĚ I giggled
‚ÄúAnd I am the one who has equal share in this crime and making that dream came true‚ÄĚshe replied pushing her hands towards me for friendship
and I am wishing if this moment will get still-stand here.
We visits all over Jaipur together for two days as i don’t want to lose these moments, it’s certainly a dream came true for me with increase in heart-beat, like I felt when the first time i saw her. Her eyes telling me that she has similar feelings for me too.

Take 6 Wedding Day
It’s the marriage day and the couple is looking as amazing as thier heavy designer wardrobes, i am very happy that they destined for each other because their marriage could be my wedding affair with Surbhi as I planned to propose her today.
Meanwhile when i was wandering in my colourful garden of thoughts i saw a devil coming right towards me devastating flowers of my dreams.
“Hey..Shubh beta(son),how are you..??Mr.Mishra surprised me with his sweet gesture.

“You indeed shubh (lucky) for me as my relation with my daughter strengthen more just because of your escape route plan on that day. Your generation is always looking towards imaginary future without caring the present.
Surbhi called me some days back when she met you here & let me know everything..Things could be easily settled down with your truth. You almost ruined your relation with your parents also & had a bad reputation in front of world nevertheless i feel today you are the best man for my daughter. You never spoke anything for her to anyone after so much happened..may be for love‚ÄĚ Mr. Mishra in traditional family style completed his emotional speech in one go and i saw happy faces of our family‚Ķour family because my parents are already landed here too.
‚ÄúI wish if my all dreams come true with you no matter if it‚Äôs in Rohini or Gurgaon,nobody will force you to move ever ..so can we settle down the things now & you haven‚Äôt offered me cookies on that day with tea‚ÄĚ
I hold Surbhi’s hand and tried to propose her…
‚Äúbecause I sprinkled something over those cookies & apparently i fell in love with you so hadn‚Äôt offered those cookies otherwise washroom got occupied with you & only you that day‚ÄĚ she replied and laugh riot blasted there.
‚ÄúThese are best sweets for sweet couple..we expected it from you, doesn‚Äôt matter we are happy that our wedding would be your wedding affair‚ÄĚTarun & Shruti smiled together.
That day i realised that we have to live in present to save our future otherwise we will lose the valuable discounts offered to us by life.
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Save the Date – I (Short Story)

It’s November& isn’t a sweet November yet, with no travel assignments, no girl around & aah.. weddings to attend in queue. Marriage, the word itself is all to scream anyone who is a free soul, loves his/her space, wanted to explore the world as the idea of getting married is the end to all liberties of life. The practice of caging an eligible bachelor itself starts from these weddings and if someone falls in age group of 25-30 should be cautious enough of attending any wedding as in Indian weddings you cannot expect any personal space because the oldies will show no mercy on your ‚ÄúHappily Unmarried‚ÄĚ status & will fire back to back rounds of bullets like most personal questions on you with no escape route. They will scrutinise & qualify you for some third person without caring your concern.

Take 1..Delhiūüí¨
‚ÄúYour lipstick stains‚Ķ‚ÄĚall of sudden I am back from wedding trauma as this sweet track gazed me towards my phone that is ringing ..Its Tarun
‚ÄúShubh, please be ready by 7 pm..I‚Äôll pick you up and for god sake be ready means ready to fly..i am hoping for some mercy before my wedding‚ÄĚ he said in so fast & furious way that I won‚Äôt be able to say hello to him.
‚ÄúMercy on wedding..Are you serious??‚ÄĚI replied & we laughed.
I show some mercy on him getting punctual for the first time in life and here we left Delhi for Tarun’s wedding. He is my best friend & will soon be getting trap in wedding affair and interestingly the arrangements of funeral to his freedom is arranged at Jaipur for a week long spree of functions and I am accompanying him in this traumatic cause for moral support. After a drive of 4 hrs we reached Jaipur.

Take 2..Jaipurūüí¨
‚ÄúHi!! Brido..oh! Shruti, You‚Äôre getting more & more beautiful everyday‚Ķwhat‚Äôs the secret of this glow Ms.Fair & Lovely‚ÄĚ…I said in a witty manner loaded with laughter blast & in less than a second found myself embraced between so many red-hot cruel eyes starring & asking for my exit plan.
‚ÄúIt is just like your bunk comments those are getting more annoying & irritating with everyday‚ÄĚ she replied to save my exit & then slowly whispered in my ears ‚ÄúDon‚Äôt worry I‚Äôll find one for you, glowing more than Fair n Lovely..‚ÄĚ
It’s a lovely evening in Jaipur & I am expecting a buzzing night as its bachelors party of Tarun.
‚ÄúWhy Jaipur..I mean Tarun can manage to explore a Palace hotel of your choice in Delhi‚ÄĚ I questioned Shruti
‚ÄúFool its not about fort or castle..it‚Äôs about heritage & its not about finding palaces, its about finding souls. Wedding happens once in lifetime so make it most memorable experience ‚ÄĚ She replied philosophically.
‚ÄúLol!‚ĶOnce in life..‚ÄĚI laughed sarcastically and she added ‚ÄúActually its our dream‚ÄĚ
‚ÄúTarun never told me about his wild dream of making memories..‚ÄĚ I replied
‚ÄúOur means me & my best friend Surbhi‚Ķshe arranged everything and I‚Äôll arrange her dream‚ÄĚAgain philosophical Shruti
‚ÄúShubh..‚ÄĚ Tarun shouting behind me
‚ÄúWhat man‚Ķwhy are you shouting‚ÄĚ..
‚ÄúOh! My god I thought you are still sleeping‚ÄĚ he laughed and we followed to the venue of Bachelor‚Äôs Party that already spoiled the heart and soul of our friends sailed from Delhi because it looks like a Ladies sangeet(music) with allowance of men.
‚ÄúWhat is this‚Ķyou got engaged‚ÄĚTarun inquired as I am wearing a ring on that special finger indicating red signals for old aunties to avoid their unwanted questions about my wedding status.
‚Äúyeah!! I am and I am not a monk like you..falling in love then travelled odd 250 kms. away to attend his own wedding‚ÄĚI replied with agitation and sense of no mercy.
‚ÄúYou ass-hole..enjoy its my Bachelor‚Äôs party‚ÄĚhe said stressing on Bachelor word
‚ÄúTarun‚ĶI don‚Äôt mind enjoying but please don‚Äôt call this Mahila Sangeet(Ladies Music) a bachelors party‚Ķfor God sake look at the pale faces of your friends from Delhi‚ÄĚI said in serious tone.
‚ÄúGive me ten minutes Bro!‚ÄĚTarun smiled like he will wind up everything
like we Indians manage everything on jugaad(alternate solutions),some punjabi songs followed with drinks are enough for fetching the treat hunger of friends.
While people are busy in enjoying vibes of punjabi music I kept my corner meanwhile Shruti waved me & calling my name loudly..
‚ÄúShubh..She is Surbhi undergoing similar project as yours so I thought you‚Äôre the right person for her to help on it..‚ÄĚShruti introduced us & left‚Ķlike somebody is introducing me first time to her.

There is always a first time, for everything provided it comes in life for once..

Read further in next part that will disclose the first time moment between Shubh & Shruti..till then Save the date!

Something I never thought before…


After a long I enjoyed something while writing and I hope you will like it too.

Relationships are the most delicate thing to handle in life, it needs proper balance of love, care & understanding to cherish its importance.

You can never create great relationships in a day, it needs daily construction and there is no need to solve everything in your own way in relationship as there are few things stays better if unresolved.
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Something i have never thought before
about your persona of timeless beauty
these mysterious perplex eyes, engulf with
thousands of treasures inside
the more I try to evacute the secrets
the more I reach out to doors that
silently letting me helpless
on bay of clueless fragile shore..


Something i have never thought before
about the meaning of your unsaid words
the enchanting language of love, strucked
on the soft petals of your lips
the more I try to kiss this experience
the more I reach out to bitterness
of unsolved enigma of life
beneath the reality of truth
deep down emotions found died…


Something i never thought before
about the relations that stays long
souls stitched to one heart
breath, live and exist distant far
the more we try to stay apart
the more closer here we are
in the moments and memories
cherished toghether,
I am safe somewhere
in the silent eyes & sweet smiles forever,


Something i never thought before
relations aren’t about finding everything
few things stays better unresolved.


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The Last Message…Part-2

Recap: Raghav has received a message from someone after 4 years, despite of sadness he is happy as the message and conversation sets him free from the unknown burden of guilt. He fell down to the memory lanes of his life and remembering the lost moments again.

Click here to read The Last Message…Part-1 for preview of the story.

Conclusion

After a long, one day we met for day outing organized by Aniket wherein he was trying to show me something else that took a long to understand. We were together however I was not with them. She was behaving very formal with me and Aniket has already showed me everything with this outing wherein I was really feeling out.

We dropped her home and he insisted me to spent night at his home and initiated a weird conversation.
‚ÄúDid you really like her???‚ĶI mean you are not looking serious now‚Ķ‚ÄĚ he inquired
‚ÄúWhy are you asking me this question again and again now days‚Ķ?‚ÄĚ I replied
“I feel she is really a good girl and it’s been so many months, people are in queue for her..
Let them try too‚Ķ‚ÄĚ he said, smiled and continued..
It’s about you, just for this I am saying so….you are a good person and I feel you really like her so now it’s time to show it to her, at least we got to know whether she has same feeling for you or not “ he completed
There were several volcanoes curdled and about to blast into my mind but I kept myself cool and I replied…
‚ÄúI like her very much‚ĶI cared her‚ĶI wanted her to be always happy‚ĶI prefer her things over anything in this world‚Ķif this resembles to like someone then.. yes, I like her‚Ķ.what‚Äôs there in telling her‚ÄĚ
I knew what was going in his mind by this time‚Ķ..why he is always hiding her messages with me and wanted a screenshots of her messages in the name of friendship‚Ķwhy he always talking about her‚Ķwhy he always inquiring me whether I was talking to her‚Ķ..why he always says she is a diplomatic girl‚Ķ.why he let me out of his home when talking to a mysterious girl‚Ķeverything is crystal clear…and I made my way to my place.

The next day he told her that last night we had some discussion and Raghav told me that he likes you and you’re different from other girls he ever had in relationship in past and I also feel that you’re perfect for him, he will never turn down from you like he had in past with others because this time he is feeling this as real love.

He placed his card so safely that it creates a question over someone’s image whereas showing himself as a gentleman & friend at both ends, doing this was so safe that it creates a trust on girl as well as it shows the care for his friend too.

She texted me everything and didn’t pick my calls.

She took a step and decided to quit with a person who always stand beside her in tough times. I guessed the reason and even I told her the same without introducing her Aniket’s part as its beyond my perception and I thought as if she has some care for my friendship, she would definitely understand everything but I was wrong, neither she nor he cared.


I called Aniket the next day as I had decided to have an end.

‚ÄúI had argued with Shreya and ended up with fight over a small issue‚ÄĚ I said

‚ÄúThese days you guys fight a lot; she has addressed the same thing too & she did not wanted to talk to you‚ÄĚ

‚ÄúI think you should take a break or quit here and provide a better space to this unnamed relationship‚ÄĚ He replied & continued  

‚ÄúIt‚Äôs a small thing & happens to me every third day‚Ķgo ahead & look for new aim, field is all yours‚ÄĚ He paused with not so deserving smile & added

‚ÄúI was always saying that this girl is mysterious and she just had fun with you‚ÄĚ he completed

I questioned him ‚ÄúWill you go ahead and quit this meaningless friendship with her for your friend, maybe she will have fun with you too‚ÄĚ

He was picking his bag and making his way from my room without answering to my question.

‚ÄúYou have done so much for me that I will never pay off, please do not help anyone like this from now onwards. Your silence has answered my question and there is nothing more left in our friendship too‚Ķby the way I have paid off everything to you too and you will realised it soon‚ÄĚ I interrupted him

I have already done so many efforts to tell her the truth but every time I gained strength I thought whether she will believe or not as she is not the same girl I met , not the same girl with whom I wanted to stay forever however all I wanted her to be happy always and somewhere I knew that she will return someday.


‚ÄúHello‚Ķ..Are you lonely‚ĶI am here to be your friend‚ÄĚ A very passionate voice came to my ear via my television as its already late hours of night to think something wild.. I smiled again‚Ķ
I made my mind and decided to keep my way away from both of them because somethings are beyond love…. It is not easy to understand.

The last Message

Shreya: Hi!

Just wanted to speak to you for a moment…I am getting married

Raghav: Great!

Congratulations!…Wish you a very happy married life ahead.

Shreya: I want to say something…

Raghav: I am sorry…I have already listened a lot earlier.

Once again congratulations & stay blessed!

Shreya: I am sorry… for everything that has happened between us.

I know that I was wrong.

I realised it but then it was very late and you never tried to clear the

things lately, behaved abruptly and went off…I really felt bad.

I am sorry again!

Raghav: It’s all right & I am sorry too..

Maybe things would be different if I dealt with patience however

there is no point of discussing those things now.

Shreya: You are always a nice guy, thank you for the beautiful time &

memories. Have a beautiful life ahead!

Stay blessed!

Raghav: Heyy! I never had any grudges with you in fact its all respect.

You did whatever you thought right but remember one thing…

Always believe in your partner and do not take any decision in

life under the influence of others. Have a great life ahead!

Good Bye!

Shreya: Bye! Hope to see you again.

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Love Notes

There is no such thing as beautiful & painful as Love.

Everything in this world has its pros and cons, nothing is perfect so does love is.

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Self Love (Hindi Poetry)

zindagi ziye zindadili se
masrufiyat me barbaad jaha saara
neeyat ko apna aaina banakar
taareef ka tarruf dekar dekhe zara
khushi ka paimana sukoon se chalkega

Spare out some time for yourself from the busy & very hectic life, two words of self appraisal is enough to win any battle of your life.

Remember before loving anyone else try to love yourself first, the most important thing we missed in our daily life routine.

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Will meet you someday.. life!!

‚ÄúAlisha‚Ķ.come¬†here¬†my¬†doll‚Ķ.Did¬†you¬†like¬†him‚Ä̬†my¬†father¬†asked¬†me
‚ÄúYes‚Ķ‚ÄĚI¬†nodded¬†with¬†happiness¬†in¬†my¬†eyes¬†&¬†forehead.
That’s first time I ever saw my father in dilemma….a worry…something which I never felt since I opened my eyes in the world of my happy happy family…..although he knew that Varun will keep his daughter more happier than any other guy in this world but he wanted to know my answer & I was happy with my parents call.

‚ÄúAlisha¬†didi¬†(sister)‚Ķ.i¬†have¬†a¬†surprise¬†for¬†you‚ÄĚNihaal¬†saying¬†in¬†cheerful¬†voice
“What surprise “I replied curiously
‚ÄúI¬†will¬†tell¬†you‚Ķ.but¬†for¬†the¬†time¬†being,¬†it‚Äôs¬†enough¬†for¬†you¬†that¬†I¬†have¬†a¬†surprise¬†for¬†you¬†&¬†by¬†the¬†way,¬†now¬†you¬†are¬†sister¬†of¬†IITian¬†and¬†its¬†my¬†turn¬†to¬†pay¬†you¬†off‚ÄĚNihaal¬†with¬†more¬†cheerful¬†voice¬†this¬†time
‚ÄúAre¬†you¬†coming¬†on¬†rakhi¬†the¬†next¬†week‚Ä̬†I¬†asked¬†him
‚ÄúSorry,¬†sister‚Ķi¬†already¬†planned¬†a¬†trip¬†with¬†friends¬†‚Ä̬†he¬†replied
‚ÄúNever¬†mind‚Ķgo‚Ķyou¬†never¬†know¬†when¬†you¬†guys¬†will¬†meet¬†again‚ÄĚi¬†said
‚ÄúI¬†knew,¬†my¬†sister¬†will¬†understand¬†me‚Ķwill¬†come¬†here¬†after¬†my¬†trip‚Ķ.and¬†important¬†note‚Ķ.i¬†need¬†some‚Ķ‚ÄĚhe¬†murmured
“I will…20,000 will do “I replied to his unsaid words
“Love you my dear sister “he replied happily
“Ok…Ok…see…Nisha is calling…see you and enjoy “I ended
‚ÄúHey‚ĶAlisha¬†didi..Need¬†to¬†talk¬†to¬†urgently‚Ķ.very¬†imp..Will¬†come¬†to¬†your¬†office¬†in¬†lunch¬†“Nisha¬†in¬†excited¬†voice
“Now…whats that…had urgent meeting today “I replied
‚ÄúI¬†saw¬†pics‚ĶIts¬†Nihaal¬†with¬†a¬†girl¬†everywhere‚Ķ‚Ķits¬†seemed¬†to¬†be¬†something¬†between¬†them‚ÄĚ
‚Äúhaaaahaaaa‚Ķ..ok¬†will¬†catch¬†you¬†at¬†my¬†office‚Ķ.got¬†to¬†go‚ÄĚI¬†said¬†and¬†sail¬†down¬†to¬†the¬†memory¬†lane.

It was the last semester of college and I already had some dreams for future as everything was happening in a short time period, engagement with Varun…best campus placement…everything was good.I was dreaming for my sweet future with open shallow eyes. It was my last exam and I was on the way to home with my friends…all of sudden a call changed the course of my life…

‚ÄúAlisha‚Ķ.done¬†with¬†the¬†exam”¬†my¬†uncle¬†in¬†mourning¬†voice
‚ÄúYes‚Ķinfact¬†‚ĶI¬†will¬†board¬†the¬†bus¬†in¬†sometime‚Ķ.why¬†you¬†sounds¬†so¬†bad”¬†I¬†had¬†replied
‚ÄúNothing‚Ķnothing‚Ķ,¬†at¬†what¬†time¬†you¬†will¬†supposed¬†to¬†come¬†tomorrow‚ĶI¬†will¬†be¬†there¬†for¬†your¬†pick¬†up¬†“he¬†had¬†said
‚ÄúWhere’s¬†daddy,¬†he¬†had¬†said¬†that¬†he¬†would¬†come¬†to¬†pick¬†me‚ĶLike¬†always‚Ķ
What‚Äôs¬†the¬†matter,¬†uncle¬†‚Ķ.everything’s¬†all¬†right¬†there¬†at¬†home¬†“I¬†replied¬†in¬†worried¬†voice?
‚ÄúYes‚ĶYes‚Ķdear,¬†actually¬†your¬†parents¬†went¬†to¬†attend¬†a¬†wedding¬†and¬†will¬†be¬†back¬†by¬†tommorow¬†evening¬†so¬†i¬†will¬†come¬†and¬†pick¬†you¬†and¬†you¬†can¬†stay¬†with¬†us¬†till¬†they¬†will¬†return,¬†nothing¬†to¬†worry¬†about¬†it,¬†your¬†father¬†called¬†me¬†as¬†there’s¬†some¬†network¬†issue¬†too¬†‚ÄĚUncle¬†said
‚ÄúOk‚Ķ.‚Ä̬†I¬†replied

I tried to call varun many times but he was not picking my call, I was not able to sleep as well…each and every minute was like hours of century at that moment as no one had picked the call..neither anyone else nor Nihaal and Nisha.The next morning my uncle came to pick me and we were on the on our way to home.

As I stepped in..I saw crowd in front of my home, people mouning and my parents were wrapped in musk white sheets, sleeping like innocent children..i tried my best to wake them up
‚ÄúYesterday‚Ķthey¬†met¬†with¬†an¬†accident¬†and‚Ķ‚Ķ.‚ÄĚuncle¬†with¬†grief¬†in¬†voice
“And….they died “I replied in strong voice
I was shocked but gathered myself and all of sudden I felt the voice of life loading me with the responsibility of an elder sister towards my younger sister & brother.

My¬†father¬†once¬†took¬†some¬†loan¬†from¬†Varun‚Äôs¬†father¬†and¬†promised¬†him¬†to¬†return¬†it¬†with¬†due¬†interest..that‚Äôs¬†dowry.¬†I¬†heard¬†him¬†showing¬†his¬†concerns¬†to¬†my¬†uncle¬†that¬†now¬†he¬†has¬†no¬†interest¬†in¬†Varun’s¬†marriage¬†with¬†me‚Ķin¬†fact¬†I¬†told¬†him¬†that¬†even¬†it¬†was¬†not¬†my¬†cup¬†of¬†tea¬†to¬†kept¬†any¬†sort¬†of¬†relation¬†with¬†his¬†family.
I know Varun loved me so much so he came to me but with a irresistible deal to leave Nihaal & Nisha with my Uncle and Aunty and fly with him to USA…..I refused him and he never came back to me after that day I made myself busy in fulfilling dreams of my parents and family.
Nisha became fashion designer chose her life partner and got happily married and Nihaal got selected in IIT and became engineer and as I thought that my responsibilities are over..Nisha told me about Nihaal’s relationship with some girl.
‚ÄúAlisha‚Ķits¬†enough¬†girl‚Ķnow¬†think¬†of¬†yourself¬†too‚Ķits¬†not¬†easy¬†to¬†spend¬†life¬†alone¬†and¬†at¬†one¬†point¬†of¬†time¬†everyone¬†seeking¬†someone¬†besides¬†them,¬†its¬†not¬†easy¬†to¬†walk¬†upon¬†alone¬†on¬†your¬†own.You¬†already¬†devoted¬†your¬†years¬†in¬†their¬†upbringing‚Ķ.and¬†when¬†it‚Äôs¬†their¬†turn¬†to¬†think¬†something¬†for¬†you¬†instead¬†they¬†just¬†thinking¬†for¬†their¬†lives‚ÄĚSneha¬†my¬†best¬†friend¬†said¬†in¬†stubborn¬†voice
‚ÄúSo¬†what‚Ķwhom¬†will¬†they¬†speak¬†their¬†concerns‚Ķ..‚ÄĚI¬†replied
‚Äúbut¬†what¬†about¬†your¬†life‚Ķ..see¬†I¬†know¬†you¬†love¬†them¬†but¬†‚Ķwill¬†they¬†ever¬†think¬†about¬†you¬†and¬†your¬†choices¬†‚ÄĚSneha¬†in¬†more¬†rigid¬†voice
‚ÄúThat‚Äôs¬†none¬†of¬†your¬†business‚ĶI¬†will¬†find¬†someone¬†one¬†day‚ÄĚI¬†replied¬†this¬†time¬†more¬†stubborn¬†manner
‚ÄúOk‚Ķdon‚Äôt¬†spoil¬†your¬†mood‚Ķall¬†set¬†‚Ķwhat¬†will¬†be¬†the¬†timings¬†of¬†your¬†bus,¬†I¬†will¬†drop¬†you‚ÄĚshe¬†smiled
‚ÄúTake¬†care¬†and¬†please¬†some¬†wishes¬†for¬†me¬†too‚ĶJai¬†Mata¬†ki‚ÄĚshe¬†said
I wished to visit Vaishno Devi when everything will be in place and it’s the time.
Everyone in the bus are with their family, friends,siblings and their loved one except me that gave me a sense of emptiness in life that I could share with me only.
I came back and looking for reality that is emptiness and lonliness. Nihaal is coming after a long time so I am little excited for him.
‚ÄúAnushka‚Ķthe¬†name¬†of¬†the¬†girl¬†and¬†her¬†parents¬†will¬†come¬†after¬†three¬†days¬†didi‚Ķ‚ÄĚNihaal¬†said¬†convincingly
‚ÄúAllright,¬†I¬†will¬†call¬†uncle¬†and¬†aunty¬†too¬†after¬†all¬†they¬†are¬†our¬†elders¬†and¬†their¬†presence¬†is¬†effective‚Ä̬†I¬†replied
And Nihaal broke into happiness

‚ÄúOh¬†my¬†god‚Ķ.what‚Äôs¬†happening,¬†elder¬†sister¬†is¬†still¬†unmarried¬†and¬†he¬†is¬†thinking¬†of¬†himself‚Ķ¬†Why¬†the¬†hell¬†these¬†brother¬†and¬†sister¬†didn’t¬†think¬†of¬†you..your¬†sacrifice¬†and¬†your¬†happiness‚Ķ‚ÄĚAunty¬†said¬†with¬†all¬†concern¬†towards¬†me¬†during¬†shopping¬†of¬†Nihal’s¬†engagement¬†ceremony.

“I¬†am¬†telling¬†you¬†that¬†you’ll¬†realized¬†it¬†one¬†day..”¬†aunty¬†continued

We¬†met¬†with¬†parents¬†of¬†Anushka¬†and¬†finalized¬†the¬†date¬†of¬†engagement¬†ceremony.¬†Everyone¬†is¬†busy¬†in¬†arrangements¬†although¬†I¬†am¬†happy¬†but¬†there¬†is¬†something¬†in¬†my¬†heart¬†which¬†makes¬†this¬†situation¬†filthy…a¬†thought¬†when¬†we¬†went¬†for¬†shopping¬†and¬†I¬†chose¬†a¬†sari¬†which¬†somehow¬†not¬†the¬†choice¬†of¬†my¬†siblings,¬†just¬†because¬†they¬†thought¬†I¬†was¬†not¬†perfect¬†for¬†it‚Ķjust¬†because¬†they¬†found¬†me¬†too¬†aged¬†for¬†those¬†colours..Those¬†words¬†showed¬†me¬†the¬†reality¬†of¬†modernization¬†of¬†relations‚Ķan¬†image¬†of¬†selfishness.¬†I¬†sacrificed¬†my¬†age¬†and¬†years¬†for¬†my¬†sister¬†&¬†brother¬†and¬†they¬†thought¬†me¬†imperfect¬†for¬†having¬†bright¬†colours,they¬†are¬†making¬†their¬†choices¬†and¬†never¬†asked¬†me¬†for¬†my¬†wishes¬†and¬†hoping¬†to¬†live¬†my¬†lives¬†as¬†per¬†their¬†choices‚Ķ.
It’s the day when I decided to let myself free from every responsibility, time to spread my wings in open blue sky to fly, to live life,I gathered myself and step out from all boundaries of life for Alisha….

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Its Ok not be Ok..

At times we all need to be reminded that,
It’s ok not to feel ok
its’s absolutely ok to ask for help.
Let’s be there for each other.

Its ok not be ok sometimes
Its ok to reach out to people you love
Its ok to ask for help
Its ok to talk about fears
Its ok to share your deepest emotions with them.

-prashantt