The Last Message…Part-1

The Last Message It is one of the coldest night of December and I was intensifying the sharpness of winter with single malt and flavoured cigar. I used to have such fun when feeling contented from the bottom of heart. After 4 years she sent the message and I read it many a times, no … Continue reading “The Last Message…Part-1”

The Last Message

It is one of the coldest night of December and I was intensifying the sharpness of winter with single malt and flavoured cigar. I used to have such fun when feeling contented from the bottom of heart. After 4 years she sent the message and I read it many a times, no I am not happy because she messaged me but the reason of joy is that I replied her and set myself free from an unknown guilt.

4 Years Ago

Enigma

It was a fairly an expected result as my sixth sense strikes right on target at worst times. My friends were used to advise me that when two opposite gender spending most of their time together it‚Äôs not a relation of friendship, it‚Äôs a relation that silently remove the word “friend” with foolish feeling of four letters sounds attractively as love.

There are many things between a guy & a girl beyond those four letters called love‚ĶWell! I always believe that there is a space in Girl friend and Girlfriend‚Ķin fact we like to spend most of our time with a person who offers a much needed space in our general life and this active space makes any relationship breath lasts long but what if we don‚Äôt realize about this space…
So many questions are wandering over my 3 gms. of heavy weight random access memory, people called it mind……

The End.

‚ÄúSorry but it‚Äôs better to say bye‚Ķit‚Äôs good for you and me too‚Ä̂Ķshe slapped hard with her words.
And the story ends with that last message of love..

However I am mindless as I used to believe it‚Äôs either a start or restart but there is nothing like an end‚Ķ‚Ķso how come will I think of losing the things that fits in theory of end, maybe it happens when you switched off all the sources of light in room especially when it‚Äôs all dark in outside world too…

It’s a dark room with unspecified mysterious abandonment everywhere & a cloy smile over my face along with incessant flow of weird thoughts at somewhere in backdrop of chaotic mind & all of sudden a blink of micro red light from my phone signalled me to check the unread messages that took a harsh end offered with an unexpected space in life….

‚ÄúSorry but it‚Äôs better to say bye‚Ķit‚Äôs good for you and me too‚Ä̂Ķshe slapped hard with her words.
And the story ends with that last message of love..
I am blanked clueless‚Ķbecause it came from someone I admire most for the first time in my life maybe because I respect her. You can love everyone but you cannot respect everyone, once you start respecting someone the love would be eternal itself…that’s what I used to believe.
Is it so easy to break a bond instantly without even a reconsideration…a bond mounted long on the foundation of trust & faith embraced with unconditional love?

It’s hard to swallow but I have to because it’s her wish. She had already made her mind and took the conclusion whereas me……
I was thinking…

Why I always kept my tongue off….?
Why I always cared her so much…..?

Why I trust him so much?

Beginning.

‚ÄúHi, I am Raghav‚Ķ‚ÄĚI introduced myself with a low pitched excited voice
‚ÄúHi, I am Shreya‚ÄĚ she replied graciously‚Ķ.
That‚Äôs how the story begins but every story doesn‚Äôt belongs to an end and the best part of my kind of version is that I never wanted to hurt anyone so I normally ended up with depleted arrows on my back. I met her during my training sessions of 3 months and didn’t realised how she became my friend and then the best friend who kept my all secrets, daily chaos‚Ķgirls‚Ķparties everything.

She had deep beautiful brown eyes with beautiful innocent nature that easily attracts anyone towards her sweetness. The conspiracy of cupid elements happened with me and I ignored it off very well however I came closer instead of going away from her mystical aura. She is very different that’s her magic.

I became opportunist and begun helping out her in every assignment despite of bitter fact that I never had a very good past records with girlfriends but this time things were happening by their own even without my concern. It all happened with cherishing moments that we came closer to each other and with the each passing phase of time. I thought to make her fall in love I should make her happy as she looks adorably sweet when she smiles and she smiles when she was happy. It was an instant change that I never expected with myself…
A gentleman came out of me from nowhere who was anticipating for her happiness without any expectation in return.

Fortunately, I received a wonderful offer from the other company and I accepted the offer half heartily. On my last day of training I gave her a souvenir of my friendship so that she remembers me & she did.

I was lying on my bed and memories were all around my mind…. suddenly my phone beeped with blue light.
‚ÄúThanks for all your help and I missed all the things that made me smiled all the times. The souvenir you gave me will always motivates me towards growth and in return I promise you to be remain in touch forever‚Ķdidn’t know what’s this but I am missing you‚ÄĚ
That’s the magic moment for me & that changed me and my life for forever.

Trust.

I came out of my dreams into the hell of reality. It’s been 10 days since I contacted her, I thought I should at least let her know about everything, about the truth so I tried reaching her but she didn’t pick. It’s all about the perceptions I called her so that I will convey the real things as I was hoping that she may understand but I was wrong. She is so close yet so far and no reason to stay is always good reason to leave.

Once again, I was dwelling into the ocean of memories, the misunderstandings that were created by me by being a gentleman always. I thought as I was leaving her, there should be a thread that would connect us and it was my dearest Aniket and somehow it proved a beautiful thought for me but a worst nightmare I ever saw.

Aniket is the dearest one but he did not like Shreya from the beginning days of our training, he used to say that she is not innocent but a very talented actress whereas on the other hand Shreya hates him more than he hates her and what I wanted to do is a miracle in itself..

I connected two of worst enemies into friends as I didn’t want to lose either a friendship for love or love for friendship. With my ample efforts they became friends. I wanted a to create group of friends as I believed him so much that I never ever imagined the real intentions behind his shrew mind. I made them friends and always tried to keep everything aligned on same page with each other.

With the passage of time he made his connection closer to her, he does whatever I used to did for her and tends to show me that he was only doing all this for me simultaneously on the other side somewhere it results into fights between Shreya & Me on every little fronts.

Time passes by like unknown roller coaster of strange misunderstandings between us, long night chats ended up into formal greetings and a bond of love swiftly becomes friend zoned

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The Last Message…Part-2

Recap: Raghav has received a message from someone after 4 years, despite of sadness he is happy as the message and conversation sets him free from the unknown burden of guilt. He fell down to the memory lanes of his life and remembering the lost moments again.

Click here to read The Last Message…Part-1 for preview of the story.

Conclusion

After a long, one day we met for day outing organized by Aniket wherein he was trying to show me something else that took a long to understand. We were together however I was not with them. She was behaving very formal with me and Aniket has already showed me everything with this outing wherein I was really feeling out.

We dropped her home and he insisted me to spent night at his home and initiated a weird conversation.
‚ÄúDid you really like her???‚ĶI mean you are not looking serious now‚Ķ‚ÄĚ he inquired
‚ÄúWhy are you asking me this question again and again now days‚Ķ?‚ÄĚ I replied
“I feel she is really a good girl and it’s been so many months, people are in queue for her..
Let them try too‚Ķ‚ÄĚ he said, smiled and continued..
It’s about you, just for this I am saying so….you are a good person and I feel you really like her so now it’s time to show it to her, at least we got to know whether she has same feeling for you or not “ he completed
There were several volcanoes curdled and about to blast into my mind but I kept myself cool and I replied…
‚ÄúI like her very much‚ĶI cared her‚ĶI wanted her to be always happy‚ĶI prefer her things over anything in this world‚Ķif this resembles to like someone then.. yes, I like her‚Ķ.what‚Äôs there in telling her‚ÄĚ
I knew what was going in his mind by this time‚Ķ..why he is always hiding her messages with me and wanted a screenshots of her messages in the name of friendship‚Ķwhy he always talking about her‚Ķwhy he always inquiring me whether I was talking to her‚Ķ..why he always says she is a diplomatic girl‚Ķ.why he let me out of his home when talking to a mysterious girl‚Ķeverything is crystal clear…and I made my way to my place.

The next day he told her that last night we had some discussion and Raghav told me that he likes you and you’re different from other girls he ever had in relationship in past and I also feel that you’re perfect for him, he will never turn down from you like he had in past with others because this time he is feeling this as real love.

He placed his card so safely that it creates a question over someone’s image whereas showing himself as a gentleman & friend at both ends, doing this was so safe that it creates a trust on girl as well as it shows the care for his friend too.

She texted me everything and didn’t pick my calls.

She took a step and decided to quit with a person who always stand beside her in tough times. I guessed the reason and even I told her the same without introducing her Aniket’s part as its beyond my perception and I thought as if she has some care for my friendship, she would definitely understand everything but I was wrong, neither she nor he cared.


I called Aniket the next day as I had decided to have an end.

‚ÄúI had argued with Shreya and ended up with fight over a small issue‚ÄĚ I said

‚ÄúThese days you guys fight a lot; she has addressed the same thing too & she did not wanted to talk to you‚ÄĚ

‚ÄúI think you should take a break or quit here and provide a better space to this unnamed relationship‚ÄĚ He replied & continued  

‚ÄúIt‚Äôs a small thing & happens to me every third day‚Ķgo ahead & look for new aim, field is all yours‚ÄĚ He paused with not so deserving smile & added

‚ÄúI was always saying that this girl is mysterious and she just had fun with you‚ÄĚ he completed

I questioned him ‚ÄúWill you go ahead and quit this meaningless friendship with her for your friend, maybe she will have fun with you too‚ÄĚ

He was picking his bag and making his way from my room without answering to my question.

‚ÄúYou have done so much for me that I will never pay off, please do not help anyone like this from now onwards. Your silence has answered my question and there is nothing more left in our friendship too‚Ķby the way I have paid off everything to you too and you will realised it soon‚ÄĚ I interrupted him

I have already done so many efforts to tell her the truth but every time I gained strength I thought whether she will believe or not as she is not the same girl I met , not the same girl with whom I wanted to stay forever however all I wanted her to be happy always and somewhere I knew that she will return someday.


‚ÄúHello‚Ķ..Are you lonely‚ĶI am here to be your friend‚ÄĚ A very passionate voice came to my ear via my television as its already late hours of night to think something wild.. I smiled again‚Ķ
I made my mind and decided to keep my way away from both of them because somethings are beyond love…. It is not easy to understand.

The last Message

Shreya: Hi!

Just wanted to speak to you for a moment…I am getting married

Raghav: Great!

Congratulations!…Wish you a very happy married life ahead.

Shreya: I want to say something…

Raghav: I am sorry…I have already listened a lot earlier.

Once again congratulations & stay blessed!

Shreya: I am sorry… for everything that has happened between us.

I know that I was wrong.

I realised it but then it was very late and you never tried to clear the

things lately, behaved abruptly and went off…I really felt bad.

I am sorry again!

Raghav: It’s all right & I am sorry too..

Maybe things would be different if I dealt with patience however

there is no point of discussing those things now.

Shreya: You are always a nice guy, thank you for the beautiful time &

memories. Have a beautiful life ahead!

Stay blessed!

Raghav: Heyy! I never had any grudges with you in fact its all respect.

You did whatever you thought right but remember one thing…

Always believe in your partner and do not take any decision in

life under the influence of others. Have a great life ahead!

Good Bye!

Shreya: Bye! Hope to see you again.

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Love Notes

There is no such thing as beautiful & painful as Love.

Everything in this world has its pros and cons, nothing is perfect so does love is.

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The Eyes..

I still remember those
vivid serene eyes,
eyes appears to be mad in happiness
embracing all the worldly pleasures
engulfed with regrets all around
dancing over the menace of secrets
embibe the deep oceans of melancholy
looking for the veracious eyes
in the dense throng of inimical eyes
to set her free in the universe
of invigorating sphere
wherein she can feel the purity &
magic of selfless love, the soulful
moonlight accompanying with stars,
sun ushering the eternal light,
to breathe free, to feel alive,
Wish I could counter her again
hold close those innocent eyes by my side
the dream has unfurled the gateway to life

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Dhundhli dhoop ke sirmaur
halki halki channti thandi shaam
ek pyaali chai ki garmahat aur
pahaado ke nazaro mein sukoon ke lamhe
shahero ki bhaagdaud mein bahut yaad aate hai!

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Liebster Award!

I start here with a big Thanks to a very talented & profound writer Aradhana for Liebster Award nomination to my blog.She is a wonderful writer and writes amazing on each genre & topic however I love her hindi poetries the most. Click here to visit her beautiful blog.

Rules:-

1)-Thanks the blogger who nominated you.

2)- share 11 facts about yourself.

3)- Answer the 11 question the blogger asked you

4)- Nominate the 11 blogger and make them happy.

5)- make up to 11 questions and ask them to your nominees

6)- Notify your 11 nominees

Facts about myself

  1. I am a person with a positive attitude.
  2. I cannot stick at one place for long so traveling is the other half of my soul especially places close to nature.
  3. I love writing stories and travelogue.
  4. I love long drives. 
  5. I like painting & have won accolades in painting also.
  6. I like blue colour
  7. I don’t like fashionable accessories other than wrist watches,I have a good collection of wrist watches.
  8. I can mingle with anyone in a short time span, so lots of friends on my list.
  9. I used to read books by my favourite authors in free time.
  10. I can cook well (depends on mood)
  11. Good food is my weakness.

Answers to Questions asked by Aradhana

1)- How close to nature do you find yourself?

I am very close to nature, I love spending times in lap of panoramic greenery of hills even I travelled to Uttarakhand for some days after lockdown last week.

2)- Which one thing should must be in your fashion and style?

A wrist watch,

3)- What is the most beautiful time of your life?

On getting published for the first time in Travel & Leisure magazine cover page for an article on Ladakh travel story and the days spent in my hometown colorful Kanpur.

4)- What two things do you always keep with you?

Mask and Sanitizer

5)- Why did you think of blogging?

I started this blog for writing my travel experiences and stories as I wanted to document everything at one place like a diary however ended up with poetries.

6)- What are you most inspired by in your life?

I love creativity, exploring new things in life and both the aspects are the part of my passion and hobby as well as on professional front.

7)- How do you reduce your stress?

Music is the antidote to my stress.

8)- Something you never want to lose in your life?

Family

9)- What are your three favourite books?

The Fault in Our Stars by Joh Green, P.S. I Love You by Cecelia Ahern, The Promise by Nikita Singh

10)- What was a good thing you did in lockdown?

Like most of us I did enjoyed my hands-on cooking.

11)- Who are you most close to in your family?

My sister

My Questions

1.What makes you happiest & why?
2. What is the most memorable compliment you ever received?
3. What does being alive mean to you?
4. Who is your favourite Author?
5.One thing you cannot live without?
6. Who is your Role Model?
7. Which blog you enjoyed most on reading?
8. What is your weakness?
9. What inspires you to write?
10. Your favourite holiday destination & why?.
11. What is your biggest dream of life?

My Nominees:

The Eternal Words

Sakshi Shinde

Random thoughts

Sadhak

Soul Engrossed

Inner Peace

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Kamals Blogging Cafe

besondersite

Desire Sturmfrei

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Self Love (Hindi Poetry)

zindagi ziye zindadili se
masrufiyat me barbaad jaha saara
neeyat ko apna aaina banakar
taareef ka tarruf dekar dekhe zara
khushi ka paimana sukoon se chalkega

Spare out some time for yourself from the busy & very hectic life, two words of self appraisal is enough to win any battle of your life.

Remember before loving anyone else try to love yourself first, the most important thing we missed in our daily life routine.

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Kale gore ka bhed nahi
Dil se dil ka ek naata hai
Kuch aur naa aata ho hamko
Hamein pyaar baatna aata hai,
Mat pucho jahaa se
Kya hamaari kahaani hai
Hamari pehchaan bas itni
Ke hum Hindustani hai.

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Happy Friendship Day!!


I sincerely thank GOD for stitching some beautiful hearted People into the fabric of my life . May God keep all my precious threads always happy and intact.I sincerely thank GOD for stitching some beautiful hearted People into the fabric of my life . May God keep all my precious threads always happy and intact.

Life is an unknown destination
we are in journey
we met with lot of passengers
some keep on thier travel with us
some stays in our memories
some make promise to meet again..
however the we keep on moving
from one place to other
in search of desires with no ends..

Live life, spread happiness..
Let’s make friends.

Wishing you all dear readers a very Happy Friendship Day!

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Will meet you someday.. life!!

‚ÄúAlisha‚Ķ.come¬†here¬†my¬†doll‚Ķ.Did¬†you¬†like¬†him‚Ä̬†my¬†father¬†asked¬†me
‚ÄúYes‚Ķ‚ÄĚI¬†nodded¬†with¬†happiness¬†in¬†my¬†eyes¬†&¬†forehead.
That’s first time I ever saw my father in dilemma….a worry…something which I never felt since I opened my eyes in the world of my happy happy family…..although he knew that Varun will keep his daughter more happier than any other guy in this world but he wanted to know my answer & I was happy with my parents call.

‚ÄúAlisha¬†didi¬†(sister)‚Ķ.i¬†have¬†a¬†surprise¬†for¬†you‚ÄĚNihaal¬†saying¬†in¬†cheerful¬†voice
“What surprise “I replied curiously
‚ÄúI¬†will¬†tell¬†you‚Ķ.but¬†for¬†the¬†time¬†being,¬†it‚Äôs¬†enough¬†for¬†you¬†that¬†I¬†have¬†a¬†surprise¬†for¬†you¬†&¬†by¬†the¬†way,¬†now¬†you¬†are¬†sister¬†of¬†IITian¬†and¬†its¬†my¬†turn¬†to¬†pay¬†you¬†off‚ÄĚNihaal¬†with¬†more¬†cheerful¬†voice¬†this¬†time
‚ÄúAre¬†you¬†coming¬†on¬†rakhi¬†the¬†next¬†week‚Ä̬†I¬†asked¬†him
‚ÄúSorry,¬†sister‚Ķi¬†already¬†planned¬†a¬†trip¬†with¬†friends¬†‚Ä̬†he¬†replied
‚ÄúNever¬†mind‚Ķgo‚Ķyou¬†never¬†know¬†when¬†you¬†guys¬†will¬†meet¬†again‚ÄĚi¬†said
‚ÄúI¬†knew,¬†my¬†sister¬†will¬†understand¬†me‚Ķwill¬†come¬†here¬†after¬†my¬†trip‚Ķ.and¬†important¬†note‚Ķ.i¬†need¬†some‚Ķ‚ÄĚhe¬†murmured
“I will…20,000 will do “I replied to his unsaid words
“Love you my dear sister “he replied happily
“Ok…Ok…see…Nisha is calling…see you and enjoy “I ended
‚ÄúHey‚ĶAlisha¬†didi..Need¬†to¬†talk¬†to¬†urgently‚Ķ.very¬†imp..Will¬†come¬†to¬†your¬†office¬†in¬†lunch¬†“Nisha¬†in¬†excited¬†voice
“Now…whats that…had urgent meeting today “I replied
‚ÄúI¬†saw¬†pics‚ĶIts¬†Nihaal¬†with¬†a¬†girl¬†everywhere‚Ķ‚Ķits¬†seemed¬†to¬†be¬†something¬†between¬†them‚ÄĚ
‚Äúhaaaahaaaa‚Ķ..ok¬†will¬†catch¬†you¬†at¬†my¬†office‚Ķ.got¬†to¬†go‚ÄĚI¬†said¬†and¬†sail¬†down¬†to¬†the¬†memory¬†lane.

It was the last semester of college and I already had some dreams for future as everything was happening in a short time period, engagement with Varun…best campus placement…everything was good.I was dreaming for my sweet future with open shallow eyes. It was my last exam and I was on the way to home with my friends…all of sudden a call changed the course of my life…

‚ÄúAlisha‚Ķ.done¬†with¬†the¬†exam”¬†my¬†uncle¬†in¬†mourning¬†voice
‚ÄúYes‚Ķinfact¬†‚ĶI¬†will¬†board¬†the¬†bus¬†in¬†sometime‚Ķ.why¬†you¬†sounds¬†so¬†bad”¬†I¬†had¬†replied
‚ÄúNothing‚Ķnothing‚Ķ,¬†at¬†what¬†time¬†you¬†will¬†supposed¬†to¬†come¬†tomorrow‚ĶI¬†will¬†be¬†there¬†for¬†your¬†pick¬†up¬†“he¬†had¬†said
‚ÄúWhere’s¬†daddy,¬†he¬†had¬†said¬†that¬†he¬†would¬†come¬†to¬†pick¬†me‚ĶLike¬†always‚Ķ
What‚Äôs¬†the¬†matter,¬†uncle¬†‚Ķ.everything’s¬†all¬†right¬†there¬†at¬†home¬†“I¬†replied¬†in¬†worried¬†voice?
‚ÄúYes‚ĶYes‚Ķdear,¬†actually¬†your¬†parents¬†went¬†to¬†attend¬†a¬†wedding¬†and¬†will¬†be¬†back¬†by¬†tommorow¬†evening¬†so¬†i¬†will¬†come¬†and¬†pick¬†you¬†and¬†you¬†can¬†stay¬†with¬†us¬†till¬†they¬†will¬†return,¬†nothing¬†to¬†worry¬†about¬†it,¬†your¬†father¬†called¬†me¬†as¬†there’s¬†some¬†network¬†issue¬†too¬†‚ÄĚUncle¬†said
‚ÄúOk‚Ķ.‚Ä̬†I¬†replied

I tried to call varun many times but he was not picking my call, I was not able to sleep as well…each and every minute was like hours of century at that moment as no one had picked the call..neither anyone else nor Nihaal and Nisha.The next morning my uncle came to pick me and we were on the on our way to home.

As I stepped in..I saw crowd in front of my home, people mouning and my parents were wrapped in musk white sheets, sleeping like innocent children..i tried my best to wake them up
‚ÄúYesterday‚Ķthey¬†met¬†with¬†an¬†accident¬†and‚Ķ‚Ķ.‚ÄĚuncle¬†with¬†grief¬†in¬†voice
“And….they died “I replied in strong voice
I was shocked but gathered myself and all of sudden I felt the voice of life loading me with the responsibility of an elder sister towards my younger sister & brother.

My¬†father¬†once¬†took¬†some¬†loan¬†from¬†Varun‚Äôs¬†father¬†and¬†promised¬†him¬†to¬†return¬†it¬†with¬†due¬†interest..that‚Äôs¬†dowry.¬†I¬†heard¬†him¬†showing¬†his¬†concerns¬†to¬†my¬†uncle¬†that¬†now¬†he¬†has¬†no¬†interest¬†in¬†Varun’s¬†marriage¬†with¬†me‚Ķin¬†fact¬†I¬†told¬†him¬†that¬†even¬†it¬†was¬†not¬†my¬†cup¬†of¬†tea¬†to¬†kept¬†any¬†sort¬†of¬†relation¬†with¬†his¬†family.
I know Varun loved me so much so he came to me but with a irresistible deal to leave Nihaal & Nisha with my Uncle and Aunty and fly with him to USA…..I refused him and he never came back to me after that day I made myself busy in fulfilling dreams of my parents and family.
Nisha became fashion designer chose her life partner and got happily married and Nihaal got selected in IIT and became engineer and as I thought that my responsibilities are over..Nisha told me about Nihaal’s relationship with some girl.
‚ÄúAlisha‚Ķits¬†enough¬†girl‚Ķnow¬†think¬†of¬†yourself¬†too‚Ķits¬†not¬†easy¬†to¬†spend¬†life¬†alone¬†and¬†at¬†one¬†point¬†of¬†time¬†everyone¬†seeking¬†someone¬†besides¬†them,¬†its¬†not¬†easy¬†to¬†walk¬†upon¬†alone¬†on¬†your¬†own.You¬†already¬†devoted¬†your¬†years¬†in¬†their¬†upbringing‚Ķ.and¬†when¬†it‚Äôs¬†their¬†turn¬†to¬†think¬†something¬†for¬†you¬†instead¬†they¬†just¬†thinking¬†for¬†their¬†lives‚ÄĚSneha¬†my¬†best¬†friend¬†said¬†in¬†stubborn¬†voice
‚ÄúSo¬†what‚Ķwhom¬†will¬†they¬†speak¬†their¬†concerns‚Ķ..‚ÄĚI¬†replied
‚Äúbut¬†what¬†about¬†your¬†life‚Ķ..see¬†I¬†know¬†you¬†love¬†them¬†but¬†‚Ķwill¬†they¬†ever¬†think¬†about¬†you¬†and¬†your¬†choices¬†‚ÄĚSneha¬†in¬†more¬†rigid¬†voice
‚ÄúThat‚Äôs¬†none¬†of¬†your¬†business‚ĶI¬†will¬†find¬†someone¬†one¬†day‚ÄĚI¬†replied¬†this¬†time¬†more¬†stubborn¬†manner
‚ÄúOk‚Ķdon‚Äôt¬†spoil¬†your¬†mood‚Ķall¬†set¬†‚Ķwhat¬†will¬†be¬†the¬†timings¬†of¬†your¬†bus,¬†I¬†will¬†drop¬†you‚ÄĚshe¬†smiled
‚ÄúTake¬†care¬†and¬†please¬†some¬†wishes¬†for¬†me¬†too‚ĶJai¬†Mata¬†ki‚ÄĚshe¬†said
I wished to visit Vaishno Devi when everything will be in place and it’s the time.
Everyone in the bus are with their family, friends,siblings and their loved one except me that gave me a sense of emptiness in life that I could share with me only.
I came back and looking for reality that is emptiness and lonliness. Nihaal is coming after a long time so I am little excited for him.
‚ÄúAnushka‚Ķthe¬†name¬†of¬†the¬†girl¬†and¬†her¬†parents¬†will¬†come¬†after¬†three¬†days¬†didi‚Ķ‚ÄĚNihaal¬†said¬†convincingly
‚ÄúAllright,¬†I¬†will¬†call¬†uncle¬†and¬†aunty¬†too¬†after¬†all¬†they¬†are¬†our¬†elders¬†and¬†their¬†presence¬†is¬†effective‚Ä̬†I¬†replied
And Nihaal broke into happiness

‚ÄúOh¬†my¬†god‚Ķ.what‚Äôs¬†happening,¬†elder¬†sister¬†is¬†still¬†unmarried¬†and¬†he¬†is¬†thinking¬†of¬†himself‚Ķ¬†Why¬†the¬†hell¬†these¬†brother¬†and¬†sister¬†didn’t¬†think¬†of¬†you..your¬†sacrifice¬†and¬†your¬†happiness‚Ķ‚ÄĚAunty¬†said¬†with¬†all¬†concern¬†towards¬†me¬†during¬†shopping¬†of¬†Nihal’s¬†engagement¬†ceremony.

“I¬†am¬†telling¬†you¬†that¬†you’ll¬†realized¬†it¬†one¬†day..”¬†aunty¬†continued

We¬†met¬†with¬†parents¬†of¬†Anushka¬†and¬†finalized¬†the¬†date¬†of¬†engagement¬†ceremony.¬†Everyone¬†is¬†busy¬†in¬†arrangements¬†although¬†I¬†am¬†happy¬†but¬†there¬†is¬†something¬†in¬†my¬†heart¬†which¬†makes¬†this¬†situation¬†filthy…a¬†thought¬†when¬†we¬†went¬†for¬†shopping¬†and¬†I¬†chose¬†a¬†sari¬†which¬†somehow¬†not¬†the¬†choice¬†of¬†my¬†siblings,¬†just¬†because¬†they¬†thought¬†I¬†was¬†not¬†perfect¬†for¬†it‚Ķjust¬†because¬†they¬†found¬†me¬†too¬†aged¬†for¬†those¬†colours..Those¬†words¬†showed¬†me¬†the¬†reality¬†of¬†modernization¬†of¬†relations‚Ķan¬†image¬†of¬†selfishness.¬†I¬†sacrificed¬†my¬†age¬†and¬†years¬†for¬†my¬†sister¬†&¬†brother¬†and¬†they¬†thought¬†me¬†imperfect¬†for¬†having¬†bright¬†colours,they¬†are¬†making¬†their¬†choices¬†and¬†never¬†asked¬†me¬†for¬†my¬†wishes¬†and¬†hoping¬†to¬†live¬†my¬†lives¬†as¬†per¬†their¬†choices‚Ķ.
It’s the day when I decided to let myself free from every responsibility, time to spread my wings in open blue sky to fly, to live life,I gathered myself and step out from all boundaries of life for Alisha….

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